I'm not a fan of New Year's resolutions. You make them. Before the first month of the year is over, you break them. That is NOT what this post is about.
Also, not doing a "release schedule" because those haven't worked out.
2019 kicked my butt and I only wrote and released two books. #FAIL
The world has gotten very ugly the past few years and I've found myself sucked into a black hole of misery and hopelessness, just disgusted with everything. We didn't even do Christmas this year. My dogs dying was the last straw for me. Everything is sad and I'm so very tired. All. The. Time.
I know part of it is the depression I've struggled with my whole life, but also... it's dealing with things and people I know do their damnedest to break me down. Enough.
In 2020 I am severely cutting my internet time. I will update my Facebook pages and Twitter, maybe Instagram when I remember it, as it is the way I stay in touch with readers, but no web surfing and following the links to stuff that is just so depressing it sucks the life out of me. No getting caught up in why people are so full of hate and ignorance. I'm tired of being sad, mad, depressed, and just plain unproductive.
I'm going to stop dealing with people who spread negativity. Whether it's coworkers, friends, or family, I don't care. Life is too short to walk on eggshells or crumble under the weight of other people's issues.
I'm going to read more, find more artists, and promote them because the world needs MORE art in all its forms.
I'm going to make more good things. More fun outings with my kids, more memories worth keeping, more joy, and of course, more of my own art: BOOKS. I'm going to tighten my money to do more promo, to shoot for my lifelong dream of being an author who can actually support her family from just writing. And I'm going to give more because it just feels good. I've already started donating the money I would normally spend on my dog's medication to animal related charities. It's the least I can do when I just can't bring myself to take in another dog and risk going through the heartbreak of losing one all over again. Maybe someday, but definitely not now. I miss Spirit and Zoe terribly and I'm far from ready to bring a new dog into our lives and go through another loss down the road.
I don't know how many books I will write this year. I'm just going to do my best to stay away from negative influences this year, stop comparing my path to success to others' paths to success, stop obsessing over sales or lack of sales, reviews or lack of reviews... and just CREATE. Write a book, edit it, release it, start another. Set up a promo, schedule it, and let it fly without constant checking on it. (Seriously, I refresh screens like my life depends on it while I'm running promos. Totally unproductive.)
Hopefully this will naturally produce at least 3 Raymond Lee and 3 Crystal-Rain Love books. Maybe more. We shall see.
I do know what I will be working on. If I can do more, I definitely will, but my focus for this year is:
Raymond Lee: Macabre (short story collection) (Already started)
The first in my twisted fairytales series.
The 2nd Zombiewood novel
Crystal-Rain Love: Vampire's Halo (Blood Revelation # 5) (Already started)
A new Moonlit novel
Another Twice Bitten novel.
It's a lot, but limiting my internet time will help me stay on track to at least start on all of these if not finish them all. Also, my readers are great. It seems every time I start to feel overwhelmed or think maybe I'm not as good as other authors I aspire to be on level with one of you will sneak in and send me the most encouraging message... just when I need it. Thank you for reading, for following, and for believing.
You inspire me to keep on pushing. :)